It is what it is...

Hello Everyone!!!

Feeling good to write something on a Sunday to make it a good day with something good to share. Somehow I have started loving this thing about me that I am getting something to write, something to share: some random thoughts, some good memories, some crazy dreams, and at times strange nightmares. And the fact that I have started writing feels good. Well, it's really difficult to get time to follow your passion when you are stuck in the 9 to 6 rat race, meeting deadlines, chasing targets, and stressed out due to the people who do not care about your well-being more than the company goals and targets. Yeah, that is what it is... But the fact that I take some time out and write is something I would not like to give up on.

    So, to let you know, this isn't something about nightmares; it's something about this sweet memory that Dhruv cherished early this morning. Sunday is mostly a lazy day for people as they just want to relax and give time for their body to heal, and at times, chill the entire day with Netflix or mostly Instagram reels. Well, in my opinion, it's always good to do what you like, and Dhruv believes the same mostly. But today it was not what he had planned. Today it was going to be a busy day for him. He had planned to study the entire day and relax in the evening.

    His day started around 8 am when he woke up, got fresh, and went for coffee along with his roommates. He was preoccupied with thoughts on how he would plan to finish the things he had planned for the day. One of his roommates started discussing how the others went to the pub late at night. Dhruv distracted his thoughts and began to be a part of the conversation. Dhruv had never been a person who loves hitting the pub; rather, he would be in a café reading books or spending time with friends. He told them his views about going to a pub. "I really don't understand how someone could spend so much money just to go to a pub where the music isn't even of your choice, and then dance as if you are a master in it. Get drunk and keep repeating the same steps over and over again. Instead, whenever you want, just put on the music of your choice and dance in your room whenever you want. It will definitely save a lot of money," he said.

    Both agreed on his opinion, and later he began to share his experience of a pub where he went along with Radhika. He stopped in between as he recalled something at that very moment, as if it was happening right in front of him. "Kya hua Mottu?" Radhika said, standing in front of him, holding his right hand and touching his face with the other hand. The loud music in the background, which Dhruv was hearing for the first time. The way Radhika was dressed up and was enjoying the moment to the fullest. Dhruv could still feel the presence of her at that moment while he was sipping his coffee.. 

"Nothing. I don't like this music; don't feel like dancing," he had replied to her. "We came to enjoy, Dhruv. Just a few more minutes and it will be a new year soon. If you want, we will go out for some time then come back." Then Radhika took him out of the dance floor away from the crowd.

    Everything ran in his mind. He smiled while he cherished this fond memory of Radhika. His friends were not aware of his thoughts, so once his coffee was over, he left them and came back home. The memory from the 31st December 2008 flashed right in front of his eyes as if it had happened yesterday. He wasn't sure if he should cherish the memory, be happy, or feel sad as he is still alone. He still misses the fact that she isn't there. Those moments spent are just lying around as memories in some corner of his heart.. 

    So currently, Dhruv is not in a state where someone ends up being sad or crazy for losing a person he loves. He is only thinking about this one thing: why does he still have these memories, whether it's good or bad doesn't matter. He thinks, why can't someone just erase them from his mind like it never happened. Just like those canon events explained in the movie Spider-Verse.

Strange thoughts always run around our minds. We constantly keep thinking that we have complete control of our life until such events happen, and they take us back in time where life was beautiful and we had a purpose to live it. However, at the same time, we also had moments that were not supposed to happen, but it did, and life gave us a chance to learn from it.

    There are and there always will be a few things that can never be undone, or things can never be the same as they used to be. But then, isn't this a part of life? The things that happened, those so-called canon events were supposed to happen because they make us who we are today. Thinking about the past memories can make us weak, agreed. But there are these few good moments that will always help us be strong and build us that courage we need to face this world. Our past will always give us two things: a good memory and a lesson to learn. It's up to us how we deal with it. Let it destroy you or help you shape yourself into a strong, confident person that you weren't before.

   So it's all about that one sweet memory that Dhruv recalled today. Did it make him weak or strong? He smiled and thanked God for giving him those beautiful moments in his life which he could recall and smile throughout the day.

We often think what if this didn't happen or what if things were right. But the fact that this very question "WHAT IF?" gives birth to a lot of possibilities that could often lead to an unstoppable thinking mode. So it's always good to let things happen and give time some time.

Because it is what it is.... Happy Sunday!!! 😊